The well-known broadcaster and priest Fr Brian D'Arcy contemplated
leaving the priesthood following his censure by a Catholic Church
watchdog, a new BBC documentary reveals.
The documentary, titled 'The Turbulent Priest', which was
screened by BBC NI on Monday evening last, provided an insight into the
high-profile cleric's dilemma as he confronts his censure by the
Congregation for the Doctrine of Faith and grapples with some of its
thorny issues such as its teachings on clerical celibacy.
He also openly discussed his personal experience of clerical abuse as a young seminarian.
Last April it emerged that the Passionist priest had been censured by
the the Catholic Church's doctrinal watchdog, the Congregation for the
Doctrine of Faith in Rome, which was angered by his criticism of the
church's mishandling of clerical sexual abuse and his views on celibacy
for priests, its teachings on contraception and homosexuality.
The BBC documentary followed the Enniskillen-based priest over a number
of months as the 67-year-old talked to individuals within the church in a
search for an answer as to whether he should stay or leave after 50
years in the priesthood.
It showed him attending the International Eucharistic Congress last June
and travelling to the UK as well as to Austria, where he met dissident
priest, Fr Helmut Schuller, who is lobbying for reform of some of the
church's core teachings.
In a letter to Cardinal Sean Brady, Fr D'Arcy questions him about the
future of the church.
The cardinal responds, telling him: "I know that
with your excellent access to media and superb communication skills you
are well placed to share the fruits of such reflection with others. I
wish you well as you continue to do so."
Speaking ahead of Monday's broadcast, the
popular 'Sunday World' columnist explained that talking to a range of
contributors helped "clarify in my own mind" the answer.
"I want to be a
priest. I love being a priest. But I am not sure if the church loves me
being a priest," he explained.
In the documentary he asked: "Is the price of being a priest that you
stay quiet, that you don't be a whistle blower, and that the price of
dying a priest is that you don't speak the truth?"
The broadcaster also reveals his struggle with mandatory clerical
celibacy, stating: "I would have been a much better priest had I
married. I think it would have been the whole thing of sharing your life with
somebody else and the whole thing of making sacrifices for somebody else
and also that idea of a companion, a closeness, a friend, someone to
call home."
He is frank about the pain of his own personal experience of sexual
abuse in the church, which occurred when
he was an 18-year-old seminarian.
"I was preyed upon by a member of my own order. Of course the threat was
made that unless I co-operated with this that I would not be ordained."
As early as 1985, the 'Turbulent Priest' wrote about clerical sexual
abuse in his 'Sunday World' column but the church in Ireland wasn't
listening.
"There were scandals in Alaska ... and I had picked up on this from the American papers."
He is also concerned that the Vatican is returning to the conservative
church of his youth, which he believes will alienate Catholics and warns
that if "we allow them to impose this legalistic church again. . .
that's what led to the abuse of children, abuse of power, the abuse of
the church itself".