Can a priest love someone in particular and also be at the service of
others?
Is the love a priest has for his wife exclusive or can it be
inclusive?
These were some of the thoughts that went through my head 30
years ago when I took the decision to marry Marta.
I remember well that evening in Glendalough standing alone by the lake.
With arms wide open I cried to Heaven: “My God what do you want of me?”
I felt a deep peace come down upon me and knew in my heart that I
wanted to marry her.
Looking back on these 30 years of married life, I
know I did the right thing. I have been able to raise a family, have a
secular job and do pastoral work. The sacrament of Matrimony has not
been an impediment to my work as a priest.
To recall our 30 years, Marta and I have written a book: I Only Want You to be Happy: The Love Story of a Priest and a Nun.
It is a simple story of how two people from different backgrounds and
nationalities were drawn together until they discovered that they wanted
to continue their lives together.
Life-changing decision
It talks about our families, about my arrival in Brazil as a Holy Ghost missionary priest, how we gradually became closer to each other, about my return to Ireland to pray and to come to a decision.
It describes our
wedding, tells stories about our two children. It talks about my
pastoral work and shows the good working relationship I have with parish
priests and how the people accept this.
It is a love story of a priest and his wife.
Do I hear voices in the
background saying, “But a priest can’t love just one person, his love is
for everyone.”
Do you think St Peter loved his wife? Of course he did.
Did she accompany him on his missionary journeys? St Paul in Corinthians, chapter
9 v 5-6 says: “Don’t I have the right to follow the example of the
other apostles and the Lord’s brothers and Peter, by taking a Christian
wife with me on my journeys?”
Priests in the Orthodox church are married.
Do they love their wives?
Have they time for ministry?
Likewise the Anglican priests received with
their wives into full communion with the Catholic Church.
Here in Brazil, people accept me as a married priest. They know who my
wife is so there is nothing hidden. I do everything I did as a celibate
priest except that I no longer have a parish. I always answer, and will
always answer the call of the people to serve them.
I’m called to go to the cemetery, to administer the Sacrament of the
Sick, to give Bible courses, to train lay missionaries, to give
retreats, to organise prayer groups in apartments.
Do I say Mass? Yes,
in my own home, for the important occasions of our family.
I do not say public Masses. I respect canon law, although I don’t agree
with it.
Here there are many communities deprived of the Eucharist. I
could be called to celebrate for them.
The hierarchy needs to take a
pastoral decision about this grave problem, which is not just confined
to Brazil.
In Disappearing Priests, Fr Brendan Hoban asks: “Who will break the bread for us?” He is talking about the shortage of priests in Ireland. Without priests we have no Mass. Without Mass we have no church.
When we pray for vocations we should be thinking of other forms of
ministry and not just that confined to a celibate priesthood. When Marta
and I got married, we took on secular jobs to live and support our
children.
One of the arguments against a married priesthood is that the church
won’t be able to sustain a priest with a family.
But a parish could be
divided up into communities. In these communities, a married priest
could have his job, give spiritual assistance to the people, celebrate
the Eucharist.
I know what it is to have a family, have a job and find
time to serve the community: it’s not easy but it is possible.
Nurtured vocation
When I got married, I lost the position I had in society as a parish priest. I don’t miss that.
My wife has helped me keep alive the flame of
my priesthood. If anything, she is the one who has preserved and
nurtured this vocation.
Our book may help priests who are in a relationship come to a peaceful
decision. If they marry, may they choose well, as I did, a companion who
can help them reflect on their ministry, someone who has experience of
church work.
Brian Eyre lives at Recife in Brazil; br_eyre@hotmail.com